And so the time has been ticking away. I have kept myself to myself (as i do) but I’m finding my friends list on Facebook is increasing at a very fast rate all of a sudden and I’m not sure why? I know this is a good thing but it makes me wonder what’s behind it as i don’t do PR of any kind preferring to always just let thing do what ever they do.
I always knew my predominant friends requests would be men and they would most lightly DJ’s and producers who seek me out.
Don’t get me wrong I don’t have a problem with whom ever finds me worth adding to their list on Facebook, I’m just not the best conversationalist and generally I write about Apple stuff and geeky stuff rather than curse about the music industry or hype up any music (especially my own`)
I have come to realise over time with Facebook how important it is for other people to feel like they are being real or at least portray themselves in that way. I never really knew this before as i myself have always tried to be real as i work in such a fake industry so i though it was me being in the music business that had made me neurotic and over the top with my need to keep low profile and avoid the hype. I suppose my way of being normal is to not be famous as fame is so fake. Staying true to myself while always living in a contradiction with my work is not easy and fame is not real it’s just a perception put on you by others as i am not the person anyone thinks i am because they hear and support my music,,? i wonder if you understand these comments?
If you really wonder what makes me anymore special than anyone else you must know there is nothing but my music and i don’t rate that as making me anymore worth while than anyone else it’s just what I do. I don’t see it as exceptionally superior to anyone else’s life or jobs.
Yes I’m really just a confused neurotic person like everyone else and i work harder at keeping a low profile in the fame game because music keeps projects me onto peoples radar in a fame kind of way that i don’t really like.
Funny world we live in and yes i spend a lot of time analysing it but I know some of you that take the time to read my blogs would have heard this all before in older posts going back many years …and yes the series of albums I have been working on are almost ready lol (again!)…..(again again…)
I know things will change when I release this stuff some for good and some for not so good and some for the worst but I am once again excited by the prospect of getting this mammoth series of albums out.
All good things come to those who wait 🙁 ohh or is it…. All good things must come to an end?
xxx